My Resolution Update – January

Good Morning guys, and Happy Mid February. It’s crazy how fast that came around, it feels like yesterday when I was seeing in the New Year. Since I openly shared my New Year’s resolutions, in the hope of being held accountable, I thought I would update you all with how I am getting along. This is going to be embarrassing, as honestly, January was one of the worst months I have had in a long while.

Let’s bring you up to speed, emotionally the month has been very up and down for me. There were some really nice highs, like my birthday and also my sister’s graduation, but there have been lows as well which have left me mentally drained. I don’t cope well with feeling low, my go to method of coping is crawling into bed and staying there for hours on end. As you can imagine that brings my productivity levels to a halt and I don’t get much done. And all that does is make me feel even lower and it’s a vicious cycle that is so hard to break. So now that February has peeped, I am starting to slowly rebuild myself up again, as I don’t want to let the year slip away without achieving my goals and targets. Talking about targets, let’s discuss my New Year’s resolutions and how I got on with them. You can read my original New Year’s Resolution post [here], I was feeling a lot more positive.

  1. Get Fit & Tone Up – Sigh, this hasn’t moved at all. I haven’t even visited the gym since I returned from Bangladesh. The first 2 weeks, I had a very irritated stomach which meant exercise was out the question. On a positive note, I did lose quite a bit of weight. I am hoping February is going to be the month I go to the gym, even if it is once or twice a week. I need to build my stamina back up.
  2. Fix Blog, Blog More and Upload More – Hmm, again another fail. I have upload just one blog post (check it out here) and no YouTube videos, I am working on content at the moment so hopefully I will change this. I have however worked on fixing my blog, and am in the middle of completing the fixes, so at least there has been progress in that front.
  3. Become a Positive Person – This definitely did not work during January, mentally my anxiety and stress levels really hindered that. I can’t wait to start feeling better and happier and becoming more positive, but I do also know myself and know that this isn’t something I can’t force. It needs to happen naturally so who knows, maybe my February update will be a little more positive. I am also planning on looking into reading positivity, self-growth books so if there are any great ones you’d recommend, please do let me know.
  4. Start Praying More – Okay, something I can say I am actually doing. As I’ve mentioned, mentally I haven’t been 100% and honestly I think praying has made me feel a lot better. I am still not as consistent as I would like to be, but I wasn’t expecting that straight away. I just know I am getting a lot more regular at praying, and if that is the only goal I tick off this year I won’t be too disappointed in myself. I know my parent’s would be the happiest parents in the world!
  5. Create a Home – This is a goal that I know needs to be parked till towards the end of 2018. However it doesn’t stop me from buying way too many home bits!
  6. Learn how to Wrap a Saree – No progress with this on either. I may go home today and just bring out a saree, blouse and petticoat from my wardrobe and leave it in plain sight so that I am more likely to practise.
  7. Wake Up Earlier – This is a new resolution which wasn’t a part of my original resolutions. I need to wake up earlier. I am most definitely not a morning person and I realise that is also something that works against me when it comes to being more productive. I sleep in quite late on weekends and also rush every weekday morning and I would like to change that. Hopefully it is something I am able to combat this year.

So those are my resolution updates, it’s definitely not where I thought I would be when I first wrote them out, but life always has its own plans for you no matter how well you plan out what you want to happen. I’m going to have to forgive myself and accept that health comes first. I’d be lying if I said I am okay to be in this position for our next update, so please keep your fingers crossed for me so that next month, I have more positivity to share. Speak soon, Tanzina x

 

My New Year’s Resolutions 2018

New Year’s resolutions are a funny bunch, some people love them and others really don’t agree with the concept. I haven’t really focused much on New Year’s resolutions for 2017, and to be honest, looking back I am glad I didn’t. 2017 has been crazy for me, I got married at the end of 2016 so just settling into this new life has taken up the majority of my time. I have had quite a few ups and downs, cases of anxiety, and I have experienced lots of changes. What I want to do today, is reflect on the last couple of years and pen what wishes I have for this new year.

As this post goes live, I am currently in Bangladesh. We flew over on the 15th of December (the date of my one year wedding anniversary) and will be back in the next few days. I’ll be seeing in the New Year with a party on the 1st of January, to celebrate our one year and also to celebrate with family over in Bangladesh who were unable to attend our wedding. As you guys may already know, my family are the single most important thing to me, so to have them surrounding me will be the best start to year 2018. I actually last wrote my New Year’s resolution back in 2016 (which you can read here) so I thought I would touch on my resolutions from two years ago and see how much has changed. Here is an update on my 2016 resolutions.

  • Get Fit & Tone Up – This one made me laugh because it really is an on going thing, one I haven’t quite cracked yet. I think this must be on the majority of new years resolutions and it definitely is on mine again. Sorry 2016 Tanzina, you didn’t quite master this one.
  • Fix Blog & Blog More – I actually did manage to fix my blog, I also managed to blog more. And then all the wedding prep started, and I would say 2017 has been my worst year in a while. But tomorrow is always another day.
  • Start Doing More YouTube Videos – Sorry 2016 Tanzina, you flopped this one too. This review really isn’t going very well is it. However I would say at the end of 2017 my uploads are a little less spaced out, so we’re heading in the right direction.
  • Become More Organised – I think I actually DID make progress on this one. With a wedding to plan and then a new life to sort out, I managed to get a little more organised.
  • Start Thinking About Settling Down – Hurray! Something I can completely tick off the list. I had an inkling at the beginning of 2016 that it may be an important year for me, but I didn’t want to give too much away just in case things didn’t pan out the way I wanted them to. But my husband and I got engaged and married in 2016. It makes me really happy that I can cross this one off.

So what do I have planned for 2018? Well as you can guess, some of the above resolutions are going to be transferred straight over.

1. Get Fit and Tone Up

Okay before you laugh at me, I am doing something about this. Towards the end of 2017, I was really unhappy about my body. It wasn’t knocking my confidence, but I felt hideous. I just had too many bulges, and I still do. But I started at a new job in November, and they fortunately have a gym on site! I’ve started getting into the habit of going a lot more regularly than I ever have in my life. It hasn’t worked any wonders for me yet, but if I keep being consistent I will see a change. Going to Bangladesh for three weeks will no doubt undo my fitness progress, but it may actually do wonders in getting rid of the bulges. I struggle to eat properly once I get there, and end up losing lots of weight. I am secretly hoping that is what happens to me, and then I can do all the toning work when I get back. If I remain consistent in January I think I will treat myself to a new gym wardrobe for my birthday. Oh also, the aim for 2018 is to do 10 push ups without pausing. Right now I can’t even do one.

2. Fix Blog, Blog More, and Upload More.

Sounds familiar? Two years later and still the same resolution, please tell me I’m not alone on this! So my blog does need some fixing, somehow my data isn’t getting transferred to my Google Analytics and my ads auto populate meaning they’re everywhere over the blog which I really don’t like. Those two tasks are on my to-do list for January 2017. Next, content. I really let things slip in 2017 but 2018 is a new year and a new chance to turn things around. I’m going to consciously try and stick to this one. Hopefully it’ll be one I can cross off my 2019 resolutions.

3. Become a Positive Person

This is a resolution that I began working on towards the end of 2017. I had a few ups and downs throughout the year, and it taught be that my negative mind was making things ten times worse. Holding negativity, anger, bitterness… it was doing me more damage than anyone else. I’ve started to try and become more positive and I genuinely feel that mentality is making my life better. I also purchased The Happiness Planner back in July 2017, so I am going to aim to fill it in and use it as much as possible this year. I also picked up a similar planner, but for Muslim girls from Salaam Paperie, and again I’ll try to stick to filling that in.

4. Start Praying More

I’m not going to talk too much about this one, as I know religion is quite a personal subject. But I am a Muslim, and I really get a lot of peace and fulfilment through praying. Unfortunately I am not doing it as much as I would like to, so that is definitely something I hope I work on in 2018.

5. Create a Home

2018 MAY be quite an exciting year for me, if things go to plan, I should be moving into my first house. Currently I live with in-laws, and prior to that I lived with my family, and other than my stint in a studio flat during University, I’ve never had my own house. If things go well, in the later part of 2018, I should be moving into our new house. So a major focus of 2018 is following that through, and building a home for myself, making it cosy and beautiful. I have really high hopes for this house, so I hope I can mould into the home I’ve envisioned for years – that is if the move goes to plan!

6. Learn how to Wrap a Saree

This one is embarrassing. I am a married Bengali woman, and I think I am letting my heritage down by not knowing how to wrap a saree! As I mentioned, I am over in Bangladesh at the moment, so I am hoping I master this whilst I am there. If I don’t accomplish this is 2018 I will be extremely disappointed in myself. I have spent too much money on too many stunning sarees to not know how to wrap it! And I hate having to ask people to help me.

I think I have written my heart out about my New Year’s resolution, and I will be using this post as something to measure my progress against. I think in 3 months time I will do an update, as some of these can be measured in 3 months. The house move definitely will not be possible in 3 months time but I should be able to update a few of these. I would love to know if you have any New Year’s resolutions and what measures you are taking in achieving them. Speak soon! Tanzina x

My First ‘Real’ Eid – Vlog

Hi loves! Eid Mubarak to all who celebrated it last week. This Eid was a special one for me, as it’s the first one where I sort of had my own house to entertain guests. It made me feel like a real grown up and gave me a chance for me to feed my friends and family. I was looking forward to it for a while actually and spent the days coming up to it making Eid snacks with my mum like somosas and daal puris, you’ll get to see all that in the video.

I thought I would vlog it, mainly because I wanted to capture the memories and secondly so I stop being such a ghost to you all. I feel like I’ve disappeared from this blog, and that is okay as it is a passion/hobby of mine rather than a full time job but I won’t lie, it is disheartening to see the stats dropping and views dwindling. So I guess this was also my way of saying hello again and trying to make sure I gradually start making my return on here. I’m rambling. Please watch the video and comment, share, like and all that lovely stuff.

You can watch the video [here]

I hope you enjoyed watching my Eid vlog, I’d love to know what you think and if you’d like to see more videos like this one. I enjoyed filming in this laid back style, so if you want more, I’ll make it happen. I miss being on here and typing away, so I can’t wait to be back soon. Speak soon, Tanzina x

Day Four in Rome & Rome Vlog

I didn’t think my little getaway to Rome would turn into a little mini series here on the blog, but here we are, day four in Rome, and it seems to be just that. It was just so eventful, each day jammed with something different, and so many pictures to share, I couldn’t help myself I HAD to share it with you all. Today’s post is (hopefully) going to be a little shorter than the others, as it was our final day in Rome and in essence, a shopping day. 

Rome

We had caught Fontana Di Trevi during the night on our first night in Rome, but I was adamant we needed to see it in daylight too. It wasn’t a mistake, the fountain had a different feel to it during sunlight, but just as beautiful. The water was so blue, the atmosphere so loud, just magical. We lingered for a while and then made our way over to Spagna, home of the Spanish Steps and also the shopping district of Rome. Side by side, you see all the fashion houses that dreams are made of. Prada, Versace, Chanel, Gucci, Louis Vuitton, Hermes, Armani – let’s say the list is never ending. Call me uneducated but I had no idea just how many of these brands were actually Italian – I knew some of them were but wow the Italian’s really do fashion well. And cars. And food. Talk about a talented bunch. We wondered shop to shop, picking up gifts for loved ones and looking for things for ourselves. I also had a huge shop in Zara (it’s cheaper here than in the UK).

We didn’t really do much other than shopping, but I just wanted to put this post out there so that you could see the Fontana Di Trevi in the daylight. Once our shopping was wrapped up, we headed back to the hotel and got in our taxi to the airport. Again we opted to get a private taxi simply to avoid the hassle of getting lost, getting on the right train and also because we were feeling quite lazy. I am sure it would’ve been fine catching the train but you know how it is, excuses excuses. At the airport there were a fair few duty free shops, I picked up a pair of sunglasses for myself from Ray-ban and also one for the husband as I hadn’t purchased him anything from Rome. We then quickly dined on our last Roman pizza and caught our plane back home.

As this blog post has been fairly short and you’ve been so patient with reading my blog posts, it is only fair that I share with you a vlog of all 4 days in Rome. I really hope you enjoy it, I’d love your feedback as I have never done a travel diary or travel vlog before so do let me know if this is something you’d like to see more of.

You can watch the vlog [here]

Our stay in Rome was beautiful, although a little exhausting as we packed in so much in 3 days. Would I go again? Yes for sure, but probably not right away. I’d love to travel a little more in other countries and then revisit Rome again one day and reminisce about our very first holiday there together.  I hope you’ve enjoyed the last few posts on our little trip and the vlog, do let me know if I should a post like this again next time we go away. Speak soon! Tanzina x

Our First Night in Rome
Day Two in Rome

Day Three in Rome

Day Three in Rome

Day Three in Rome really took our breath away. If you’ve kept up with the posts you’d know that I haven’t really travelled as much as I would like to. I wanted to see sights in this world that I have only seen through pictures, I wanted to create memories and I wanted tick off destinations that I have only dreamt of. Day three was particularly special to us as it was my birthday so it seemed fit that we had left the best for this day.


The agenda for the day was simple: The Vatican and St. Peter’s Basilica. The Vatican is the world’s smallest country which completely baffled us, we couldn’t understand how this could be a country but I guess it just is! Just in case you didn’t know, the Vatican is is a walled enclave within the city of Rome, where all the Popes and the current Pope lived/live. Inside the huge stoned walls, you can find the Vatican Museum, the Sistine Chapel and St Peter’s Basilica which we visited in that order. I feel like using the words ‘breath taking’ over and over again, because I can’t find the words to explain just how stunning everything was. We were just blown away by the history, the art, the details that were surrounding us. I took so many pictures, but as you can predict, it just doesn’t capture the beauty at all as the naked eye does. We literally were walking around in awe.

So we had an English speaking tour booked for the Vatican Museum, this we booked directly through the official website [this one], our tour guide was really knowledgeable and talked us through the Vatican Museum which is also the official home of the Pope. We went from room to room, soaking in all the information and history around us. We asked questions, posed for pictures and just truly lost ourselves in the moment. It is so special, and a sight I would suggest you go see if you ever get the chance to. A paragraph won’t do it justice, so I’m going to stop typing about it, but I suggest you go check out a few videos if the pictures interest you. By the way, you will be blown away by the amazing artists who contributed to the beauty of the Vatican.

Tip: We got really lucky as we went in January so we were able to move around leisurely without it being overcrowded. Try to go in the colder off peak months to truly enjoy your experience.

After the Vatican Museum, we went to the Sistine Chapel, which is connected to the Vatican Museum. Unfortunately no photos are allowed to be taken in the Sistine Chapel but a quick Google search will bring you up lots of pictures. Last time I picked up a paintbrush and did a bit of art work was way back in the days whilst doing my Art GCSE and I feel like my love for art has been reignited just by spending even 10 seconds in the Sistine Chapel. The beautiful artwork of Michealangelo which I have seen in so many textbooks and images, was right in front of me, and all the pictures I have seen could have never prepared me for how grand and how ‘breathtaking’ the real thing was – yes that word again because I can’t think of what else to substitute for the feeling I got. I just sat there, for the longest time, soaking it in and just staring. My husband was ready to move on, but I felt rooted like I couldn’t move, as there was just so much to see. So so much. I was imagining Michealangelo painting the ceiling and being pretty much blinded in the process with the lead in the paint falling into his eyes. I imagined the process of a pope being selected, in the very hall I was sitting in. It is so fascinating. I’d definitely go back again.

After the Sistine Chapel, we went to see the St. Peter’s Basilica which is a renaissance chapel inside the Vatican City. Again, the structure of the chapel was grand, if you are a fan of architecture you are going to be blown away by the very prominent renaissance architecture here. We walked around just marveling at the high ceiling, the pillars and just the million other details that made up the Basilica. I had a goal in mind, climb to the dome of the chapel and experience the view below. I was determined to tick this off my bucket list, even it almost killed me in the process. Not everyone knows this, but it is actually possible to climb to the dome of St. Peter’s, even I wouldn’t have known should I not have researched before hand. There are a lot of stairs to climb, we skipped about 400 of these by paying to use the elevator but we were left to take the remaining 550ish. These are very very narrow, very tiny winding stairs that look like a death trap. It is absolutely exhausting, so claustrophobic and quite scary climbing to the top. (I’ll try upload a vlog about it soon). Eventually after a few breaks, a lot of complaints, we made it to the top. The cold air greeting us was a welcome sensation, and the view of St. Peter’s square was just worth it. Again, pictures don’t capture the beauty, you have to see it to believe it.


After that rather exhausting excursion, we relaxed in St. Peter’s square and watched the sun go down on the square. Then, I had a craving for gelato so off we went to satisfy that craving. We wound down my birthday evening by just relaxing before dinner, which we had at a restaurant close to our hotel. We dined on spicy prawn spaghetti and virgin mojitos.

My 26th birthday turned out to be the most eventful birthday I think I ever had. I feel like it was a once in a lifetime kind of birthday, how often will I be able to spend my special day at the Vatican and all the other special places we visited. It was my first birthday as a married woman, so it was rather special sharing the day solely with my husband. Phones were off, social media silent, just the two of us. It was just beautiful, and I fell asleep that night as the happiest girl in all the lands.   

P.S You can read my other Rome posts here:

Our First Night in Rome
Day Two in Rome